fake hapiness n real sadness

if let me choose i better encounter with the reality though it make me hurt and sad. i don need any sweet lying words any more, jus tel me exactly you feel toward me and show me that you really feel that ok? don need the fake hapiness, i rather cried if it is the real one. You know m really tired of explaining you what i really want cos you never understand that, is it hard for you to take care someone, is it hard for you to be honest with someone, is it hard for you to make someone happy,  is it hard for you to give comfort someone when she crying, is it annoying to you when she keep crying without reason.. Yeah, it might be too much that i want but can’t help demanding those things. I don no my self too why i keep saying opposite thing from what i really thinking.

However, no matter what I says, no mater what i trying to show you but you still refuse to do that the only reason is that you don want to do it that’s all.