here it is my result after the exam at NUM, althouhg I pass my score did not satisfy me 
that’s ok! I get what I deserve
here we go, after the result out the party begin! but still another plan on this Sunday , for more update pls wait!
It’s time to wake up, no more sweet dreams! Just wake up ok? You sleep too long already. Wake up! wake up! wake up!
I found myself bothersome again. Sorry everybody that been bothered by me.
Do you ever had a really good dream and do not want to wake up? but you have to…. it’s sad right?
Really stupid these days, tell myself not to think too much but still those things keep coming in my head make me either sad or wanna cry but someone don’t want me to cry so try not to cry. As a result, this morning i had sth stuck in my throat feel damn hard to breath! Hope am not dying soon though i would be happy to
I just don’t know who I am? what I really want? and what kind of gal m i? How about you guys? You had your answer? I bet you did, only me that the same as a tiny boat in the middle of the ocean can’t find the way to go out, trying to ask for help but no one heard.
I just don’t know why everything I did seems wrong, seems not good. I bet you guys will tell me that you can be wrong just try to correct yourself. But the point is I always let’s it wrong and wrong again.
Sometime I just want to be like this n just hope that someone will be by myside no mater how bad am I? But finding n finding there still no one, I just don know if I am expected too high. Just someone , mayb I should give up and be happy with what i am and where I am now? My friend told me I am what I think, yeah I know she right, she always right but only that never think she right that always keep ignoring her words. Will I am the one who I am thinking? I bet I will.
All I wanna do is cry, can I cry now? no not yet but my deep in my heart are crying!
Today I feel I am a good staff I neva feel like that. Today I run to this place to that place to complete my works I rarely sit at the table that usually i didn’t do that. At first i feel really proud of myself but at the end everything i did seem not so rite, I did many things but it useless. Hm, don no wat to say more but only no that i feel not good today…..
What was yesterday is? What day is it? oh, it jus a normal Thursday for me but it might be special for the other people. The abnormal things about it is that i cried on that day, but don get me wrong not because i didn’t get any rose cos I already get used to that. But i cried cos i pity my lap, someone might said that m stupid or everyone can say that but let’s them think that cos they neva no my feeling, they have neva no and they will neva no. I hope she will be ok after today and i promise not to let her work hard as before neva connected to phone to use internet. I don no should i feel angry with my fone my dearest sony but no i should not, it cos of me alone if m not that stupid wan to play around wit it i would not make my com hurt like this. M bad, m stupid……
