A mature girl…

I think i am old enough (at least my face show that) but that not mean am mature right? Yeah, some people said m too childish. They are right, sometimes I need someone to take care of me. Tell you one thing on my CNY vacation I caught a cold but I would not take any medicines I was waiting for my mom or my aunt tell me to do so and as a result no one did so I didn’t take any medicines as well I had that illness until I back to PP. Is that too childish? I just need some caring that they used to give me, are they forgetting about me? or am I not their lovely one anymore? Did I do something wrong?

And for relation it goes the same, I would like people to care me. I hate being alone, I keep trying go to anyone that I can to accompany me though sometimes it too much for them (here I should say sorry to you that I wasting your time with me). I am trying to be mature, I am trying to be on my own sometimes though I really afraid of that and I am trying to love home (though it not as sweet as my home) but at least I have to be on my own somewhere that I don have to put such burden to any of my friends.

Just wanna say sorry for all the time you spent with me!

Money and Life!

Hey, all of you must have heard some proverb about money that “Money can buy house not home, Money can buy bed but not a good sleep…………… and so on ( I forget anyone remember pls add). However, as I am experienced life money really mean something to me as my lecturer said “Money is not everything but it really is something”.

I can tell you guys that, money is not important for me cos I never saw it value I always waste it, mostly on cloths and eating, but when I don have enough money I really sad . Actually I never ran out of money completely cos I still have my mom to support me but since she talked to me that her business not run smoothly and told me better not waste my money like before, I start to think again I tried to save money but I had no ideas how it runs out from my purse. But today I withdraw all the money I had in bank (which it is only $100) to pay for a school fee but still owe them one more subject, really proud about it cos usually I took from my mom to pay, so I still feel nothing cos I had my mom. So, I still doubted myself whether I valued or disvalued money? Don’t know how to tell myself not to waste money. You guys had any ideas?

I started to think what my life would be without money? I heard people talking to each other that don’t worry dear I will not think about your money but I really doubted if they really mean it. Sometime people can just talk differently from what they really think. They said they don’t need money but most of them working for money and use it to live in a pleasant ways.

I don’t mean that I need money badly right now cos for the next few days I ll be able to get my salary heiy. I don’t know why this thought keep coming to me but I just don’t think that our life would be ok without money. I don’t know what you guys think when you read this post but just comment to me what you think about me reflect from this post. Ok? Just a small suggestion.

I am not a princess

Hey, I just found out something inside me right now that “I am not a princess” so I have no right to angry with whoever that do not follow me or don do wat i wan them to do. Before I always like that care only bout my mind, I really upset when whoever or watever don go or do as wat I expected less or more I ll get angry with them or with myself, but now since I heard Ratha’s word said to me that u r not a princess so how can u order the other. Yes he is right I am not a princess I am jus ramana, a simple gal that hav nothing superior than any other! I think I will remember this word when thing or people don turned out to be wat I wan them to be! Hope I can lead my happy life from now on with this word “I am not a princess”.

Why?

I don’t know why I have such a feeling, I really want to read the other people mind. All people are hard to understand or just that I don’t try to understand them?

Why people have to have love?

Why love and breaking up?

Why live and died? Why not stay forever together?

There were many question in my mind right now, but just I don’t have any answere for them.

We don’t know what the other think about us, so do the other. We don’t know if what they do for or talk to us is really from their heart or just what they pretended to make us happy?

Sometimes those questions can lead to a big misunderstanding and create a big mistake for our life. Sometime I really want to trust the people around me but sometime their actions make me feel that they don’t deserve my trust. Since I was at second year one person told me that one day people will make me hurt by my honesty. I think he was right.